If there is one thing the Facebook Timeline has taught me it's that I used to be kind of hot. I mean, not to brag, but we're just going to be honest here. No bullshit. See, I can say that now that I lean more toward the 1 rather than the 10 on the hotness scale.
It also taught me that I wasn't the Victoria's Secret model I thought I was and probably shouldn't have ate a bowl of Nutella and ice cream for dinner every night while I was pregnant. Nutella looks a lot better in the jar than it does on your thighs. TRUST. And while I may not be a Victoria's Secret model with millions of dollars and personal trainers at my disposal, I am a young woman who has access to a gym and my apartment's fitness center so I really have no excuse for these extra 20-25 pounds.
Remember when I said we were being honest here? Well, I'm going to reveal my weight: 140. I weigh 140 pounds. I know that's not terrible. I know it could be worse. And I know there are probably people who weigh more than that who could possibly be offended by this post since I'm basically calling myself fat. I want to say I'm sorry, I want to say please don't take this personal, but the truth is - you aren't me. You may be comfortable being the size you are and if you are that's wonderful. Perfect. But I'm not because I know what I CAN be and I know what I used to be and that's what I want. My goal is to weigh around 120 pounds. I know muscle weighs more than fat, yada yada, blah, which is why I said around. Basically, I know what I want to look like and I know what I roughly need to weigh to achieve that goal; for one thing, I don't want to look ripped - just toned - so I don't plan on gaining a whole lot of muscle definition.
I've been on what I like to call the "LGN" (Look Good Naked!) diet and I've already lost 5 pounds. Before I started, I weighed 145. I've been pretty casual with it but tomorrow I plan on hitting this hard. I'm ready to feel excited about buying clothes again instead of trying to avoid certain styles because I already know how I will look in them. My thighs and my stomach/muffin top area are my biggest concerns. My stomach itself is perfectly flat but there is a whole lot of extra junk going on around the sides that I'm just not too cool with.
Once I lose/tone up enough that I feel a bit more comfortable with myself I'll probably post before & afters :)